Friday, May 9, 2014

Moments...

Quote for the day: “ Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away” – Dr. Hitch 2005

Moment by moment, our lives change. Moments come and go but every moment changes us forever or …not.

The older I get, the more I realise life is never somewhat what is seems.

Moments like… when I smell the freshness of rain, when I see a bubbly cute kid at the mall, with no care in the world, moments when a large smile crosses the face of a mother….these moments, I live for them.

Sometimes life is as simple as the way it sounds. Just life! *not sure I make any sense*

There are other times when you are introduced to the stark reality of life and the difficult decisions we must make. There are moments that modify our lives endlessly. Moments that you think about how things have changed, but of course you loved the way things used to be.

The special moments you smile and whisper to yourself “I love life”.

There are moments you have to make decisions, decisions where there are no conquerors or losers …just gladiators, fighters, wrestlers, boxers, warriors… There are days we have no nano-second to think, we just ACT because we have to make that decision on the shoot of an instant.

Every so often, we sacrifice who we are for the horrid uncertainties of those we care about. I cannot choose a life where everyone around me benefits from who I am but me. I want to be the first receiver of the blessing that is my life… selfish much huh?

There are moments when I must halt and pick me.

*This is dedicated to you friend, I hope you find the courage to choose you*


Prayer
May the potential of our destiny silent the noise of fear that looms to rob us of hope, perfect our vision Lord so we see that sometimes the only way to move ahead is to choose ourselves. AMEN!

Thursday, March 20, 2014

I will wait...for you

This in one deep poem, I enjoy listening to. I just thought to share. "I will wait for you" by Janette Ikz ( Sorry it's really long, you can decide to watch the video instead -find it below the post). Enjoy!

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me
So I took matters into my own hands and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a cheater,a liar an abuser and a thief 
So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was me who let him in
Claiming we were “just friends”
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!

So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a form of Godliness but not much
But hey, hey I can change him! So I’ll take him, I mean he’s close enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Artery so clogged with my will, it blocked his will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
To transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I need to wait for You.

See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn't you from the beginning
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word
But I know You
You are already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.

I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirsty desire I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
No more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
No more.

I’ll stay in my bed alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you 
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is not subject to time,
But I'm subject to Him,
He has the ability to stop, fast, forward, pause or rewind at any given time
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!

And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son.

I would gain energy simply from the light that you shine on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you 
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tattooed all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hannah
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31 waiting for you.

But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit
I desire your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT
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Saturday, March 15, 2014

Random


I carry you with me everywhere I go
A moment in my heart, a second in my head
I bug you all day long, and you developed that thick skin 
I really do not mean to be a pest
I am just a little girl trying to find her muse and your thumb seem just available 

Friday, February 14, 2014

Its the LOVE Wall yo!

Love is in the AIR!!! I remember saying in this post this time last year that...
"I do not believe in setting out a special day annually for some guy to show me he loves me…I want our love to be celebrated everyday… I don’t believe in some guy commercialising his sentiments for me… I don’t need a special day for the words “I Love You” to be proven to me. I want it proven everyday in the things we do for each other, celebrate it in our laughter and treasure it in moments that a Valentine’s Day card or gift can never fully represent…"
I still want to celebrate Love everyday but this year I am in love with love so I say "Love is in the air, celebrate it and give it a home"  celebrate it today, celebrate it always. I know people have wrong definitions of love and celebrate Valentine's day in whacked ways... I am advantage of the season to celebrate Love as well as I can, people....let's celebrate! Looool.

I saw this in a book a couple of years back and posted it as a note on my FB:
Real love waits in the cold on your front porch so you can walk to school together
Real love brings you a chocolate bar when you fall and finish last in the 100m race
Real love whispers something in the middle of mathematics about your fine finger nail polish so that you don't forget how to smile when you 're doing maths
Real love saves a seat for u in the hall through high school days,even when the other guys think its stupid
Real love stays up late on saturday making cookies together,flicking flour at each other and makes sure u both remember that night the rest of your life
Real love thinks you are pretty even when your hair is messed up and u look scruffy in your outfit
Real love lets you figure out the answers by yourself,it says goodbye for a season and prays for your return
Real love understands love and sacrifice and is willing to live accordingly...

Real love huh? What is love to you? Let's hear it , in the spirit of valentine. I go first...
                                     Love, real love is a decision 



What is love to you? Let's hear it...