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Monday, 14 November 2011
The diary of an unfulfilled lady
***Arrgghhhh, please permit me to rant***
My life is officially unfulfilled and I need help, I don't want to make any rash decisions but I'm afraid if help doesn't come then I might end up taking a rash step.
I love technology, and I have worked in a IT department for 2 years, loving every part of my job.....*reliving the memories* Yea I got a new job, ( i told you guys about it) but this job is killing me, Arggghhhh, I will give anything to get my old job back. I thought it was gonna be fun but ermmm* scratching my head* THIS! It aint fun to me. Environment is a key factor for me, If you ever want to get my best put me in a conducive environment and by conducive I meant clean, beautiful in its own way and serene too very serene. I like my things to be well organised my home, my job too. These factors motivate me to want to work, give my best and all. Now this job..used to have 2 of these factors and I was hoping it was going to get better until recently when we moved to a new place.... The noise of generators constantly ringing in my ear is a major negative , clean or neat ?? Ermm Inside the office is o , but the way to the office is nothing to write home about, the stairwell is creepy and &^*(^&E. The generator fumes constantly in my eye is so uncomfortable and seriously I can't cope, changing what is supposed to be my line of job isn't even making things easy. I just can't cope.
Now I cry every morning on my way to work, I sit in the car and shed silent tears because a new day in that line of work means torture, I wake up from bed grudgingly even my sistahs have noticed that. I can hardly write well, what used to come easy for me is now so hard. I need a break, I need inspiration.....I want my life back! I want my passion back!
So I'm thinking of resigning, but I don't have another job yet, and I'm just afraid ...but I have also reached my limit and I'm about to break. I need you friends to help me, advice me objectively because as of now....my life is officially sad and unfulfilling and I can't continue like this. I can't
*** Please pardon any typos ,I could not read over. And if you know of any body that needs a volunteer to work for them I have my self to spare, IT is my way, writing and editing is my passion (used to be , till now) I could even do some administrative work for you.
P.S: I'm not in any way trying to put these company down oooo, its a great place, good vision and I see the coy going places but there's just no place there for me.
I'm counting on you guys to help me find a way in this dark path before me.
Awwwwww...must be one tough decision. Always chose what your heart says. Listen to your inner self. Just QUIT and go home. Sleep well, relax and look for another job! Good luck, dear:)
ReplyDeleteEya. That is Lagos for you with all the blaring generators and loud noises. It might help if you can take some time off work. Just quitting is not easy especially if you don't have plans or another job lined up. All the best as you decide
ReplyDeleteIf its just the environment, cant you mention it in a management meeting or something. You might not be the only one suffering from it. It may push your employers do to something. Build a sound proof gen or fix a pipe which will channel away the smoke. The problem seems solvable..at least compared to a nasty boss or something.
ReplyDeleteAll the best shaa in your job search.
I think you could take some time off and look for a new job. Or maybe the vacation will be enough to keep you going again.
ReplyDeleteBreathe sweets, breathe.
ReplyDeleteRe: when you resign, it would be to a new job, the devil will not rejoice over you!
((HUGS))
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ReplyDeleteHey ...love your blog..too bad i came across it on the day you feel so down .But i love your writing .please dont worry it should soon come to pass. If i dint live in Nairobi Kenya, i wouldve thought you are actually describing my current office only theres more than the generator noise , theres no air , its quite dusty and gets too hot...and i can make that list really really looong . But my advice would be , if your heart is so not there ( judging from your sadness and all) just first take a break, and decide you want to think things over , say for two weeks, and for that duration , imagine yourself jobless, and doing things you love to do, even if its for fun and not for money, and also , examine your worst case scenario, after quitting your job , and you might find really its not going to be that bad , and it will clear your head , your time , and give you the drive to look elsewhere. Sometimes we really get scared of something more imagined than real. Take a break darling ..you deserve it
ReplyDeleteAt the beginning of the year, I made a sharp decision with my career/business and I could almost strangle myself after. But it's paying off in trickles right now. Sometimes these things happen to test your strength.
ReplyDeleteMy suggestion is you talk to your line manager. Pour this entire post out to him. Tell him how you feel, where you are coming from, what you expect for youth deliver etc. Then you can also look for another job.
What line of IT are you into? We should probably talk outside this wall.
First, do you want to talk to your boss about what you are facing? Perhaps they can find you a better part of the office where you won't be disturbed by the noise, smoke and all? That may help in a way.
ReplyDeleteBut should you be looking to resign, be careful and prayerful about it too. Get another job first before you do so. It is well with you...
- LDP
ok, slowly count 1 to 10. relax and breathe! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteHow about a Holiday from the New Job,just to clear your head before you know what steps to take...
ReplyDeletedear this may be late, but i think if you can you should take some time off and decide if you want to go back there or not. when u are not fulfilled, you cannot be happy. Do take care and have fun. About editing we should talk maybe you can work on my book for me.
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ReplyDeleteHope this comment gets to you in time to help you make an informed decision: I was in this same straits last year. I mean, agonizing over job satisfaction, efficiency and personal development on the job! I had what a lot of people felt was a sure payday but truth be told, I wasn't really happy as taking up the job meant putting my professional career on hold though the job initially was supposed to be on my career path( boss scammed me so as to avoid paying my due worth)but job description changed into something else and that made me take stock whether to stay or leave as i am a professional(young one at that) and what i was supposed to be doing was at variance with my profession.
Forgive my digression but i can empathize as my emotional health was seriously challenged as i agonized for 5 months over what to do( will i get a new job in my field, will it not amount to starting over, can my lean finances sustain me if no other job offer came or was on the horizon). All this showed on me in different ways, i became lethargic and stressed out all because i was working in a job i didn't want( Office was top notch, paintings everywhere, flowers everywhere, office was in prestigious address but real job on offer not on my career path though it was designed as one). To complicate issues, it was a one man business and every Naija based person knows what that entails most times.
On New Year's eve, i prayed over it and followed the leanings of my heart. 3rd of January 2011 was a game changer as i went to the office(on a public holiday, yes we work public holidays too) and told Mr Bossman thank you but for the sake of my career and my mental health, you can shove your JOB up yours. I felt good though i didnt have any back-up plans.
I have taken the time to explain in details the above because:
1. I now work for myself at my own pace, freeing more time for activities i like:
2. I have earned considerably less than i shud have but i am HAPPY and my health has been 100% so far this year.
3. I am still alive and kicking even if i do not have money to throw around like before.
4. i have time to finish my professional exams which had been stagnated.
5. Most importantly, i did what was best FOR ME! so the real essence of this very long comment( is there any such award? lol) is this, DO WHAT YOU WANT, ITS YOUR DECISION, WE CAN ONLY PROFFER ADVICE! ONLY YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU.
All the previous comments have been on point but do not get stuck in a job that's obviously stressing you because you are afraid of what the future holds as this move might be just what you need to arrive at your real path in Life. So do some serious stock-taking esp as regards the real issue: is it the job or the environment? Both issues are easily solvable, if it's the job, do something about it! If its the environment, as previously advised, talk to someone in authority about it and see if the issue can be resolved! In whatever you do, make sure it is a WIN-WIN!
Ps: thanks for stopping by! Pls stop by often.
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