What if...?

"When the past comes calling, let it go to the voice mail, it has nothing new to say"

Ermm…. I am writing this because I feel so badly about something that has happened a few months back, some sort of regret that I am finding hard to deal with…

Regrets they say are inevitable; we can’t but have them in our journey here on earth, no matter how well thought out your plans are in your life time you still end up with regrets…what  you thought could have been, some sense of loss, disappointment or dissatisfaction, some feelings of sorrow or remorse for an act you committed…

Am sure we all have incidences we love to forget, those scenes that play in our head a million times in one hour that we hope can be washed away forever by the waves of the ocean….but somehow we don’t just get past them …I have been trying to forget this event and it just gets harder and I got angry and said to myself “ I can’t let this regret paralyse my present happiness” oh yes, am sorry it happened and if I could I would have stopped it from happening but instead of dwelling on the past pain,  I rather would move on with my  life and learn not to be so impulsive when I find myself in the same situation again.

While some choices we make seem like the best ones, some other ones are not so good…the choices about our career, relationships, health etc… so many of us get caught up because we made the decision that we thought was right at that time only to realize too late that it had the wrong impact.

Regrets have a way of making us feel that need to reel in them; we thrash ourselves with those regrets like some whip. I want to believe that those regrets and especially the guilt are God’s way of nudging our consciences, and we let our self-pitying bring the opposite of what God wants to accomplish.

I think regrets are egotistical, yes, regrets teach us things, it allows us realize the important things in our lives but wallowing in them is purely a selfish endeavor. It keeps us from living. It keeps us from realizing all the actions/inactions we took that turned out right.

So as per the event I regret so much, instead of continuing in my wallow, am gonna use my regret as a motivation …yes, I regret the event and some other things in life , I regret some choices I made. But having a loving and forgiving God allows me focus on what I can still accomplish, the things I can still do, and the choices that are still before me.